I had yet to meet my sons.
I was yet to be a mother.
I didn't know that Daniel would be my scamp and Ben my heartbreaker.
I didn't know that they would both have blue eyes.
I thought I would never be thin again.
I had no comprehension of what sleep-deprivation truly is.
I didn't really know what Cerebral Palsy was.
I had never experienced the joy of hearing a child call me "mama".
I didn't know that Daniel would love tomatoes and Ben would love "neigh-neighs".
I swore I would never "sleep-train" my child.
I didn't know what an amazing father my husband would turn out to be.
I couldn't imagine how sleeping til 8am could be considered "sleeping in".
I didn't know that Daniel would call Ben "Den" and that Ben would call Daniel "D".
I had no idea that the first year of their lives was going to be the hardest one of mine.
I didn't know that they would spend the first 8 weeks of their lives in hospital and not at home with us.
I didn't know that they wouold make me laugh so much.
I had no idea what worry really was.
I would never have thought that my Ben would have to work so hard but would be so amazing.
And lastly, I had no idea that in less than 24 hours I was going to meet my darling boys and be changed forever.